tomorrow.....

not even a week ago i lost my grandmother to cancer. the crazy thing is i'm not sad about it. i'm overjoyed because she is with Jesus. she is no longer suffering, no longer clouded by her alzheimer's that had clouded her mind, and finally running again.

i had been working on a song in her memory for the better part of 3 months. it's been finished for about 3 weeks with one exception...the bridge. no matter what happened or what i wrote nothing made sense...until after her funeral this tuesday. my mom and i were able to talk and she told me the last days of my grandmother's life.

her alzheimer's had gotten to a point where she would get everything confused and didn't know half of what was going on. in a show of God's amazing blessings, my grandmother had a night of clarity. the tuesday before she died she was sitting down to eat dinner with my mom and my aunt (her other daughter) and she said she wanted to pray. my grandmother is a christian and has been for a long time but outward show of prayer has never been her thing and furthermore, since the alzheimer's kicked in it has lessened. my mom and her sister closed their eyes and my grandmother in a rare moment of clarity prayed for each one of her children, grandchildren, and the people whose lives matter to them. that they would be comforted because her time was near and that they shouldn't be sad because she was finally about to free.

that night my grandmother went to bed and never really regained conciousness. her final act as my grandmother, as my sister and cousin's grandmother, as a mother, and as aunt ethyl was to pray for her family. that touched me beyond measure and after hearing that story....i finished the song......

E3's current series wrapped up this past sunday. the series has been called 'dangerous song'. it's been a journey through the Psalms and one that has touched the lives of many people in our community. each week we've had artists within our community write an original song based on a Psalm. wouldn't you know that i picked confession and the week i played my song was the week after my grandmother died.

in honor of my grandmother.....here is the lyrics for "tomorrow" by trace armstrong

Verse 1

standing on the edge
waiting for the axe to fall
i've run out of time
with nothing left to stall
i thought that this would be
the best day ever
instead i wish that we
could go together

Chorus

i can't believe tomorrow
has now become today
i don't know what to do
but i know i've got to change
all my yesterdays have gone and fade away
and all i have is today

Verse 2

this journey's been so long
i need to rest my weary head
i've walked a million miles
my journey's at an end
i don't know what's ahead
on this dark and stormy night
but i am not afraid
for the Lord will be my light

Chorus

Bridge

from the depth of my depravity
i thank You Lord You've set me free

Chorus